Thursday, October 18, 2012

It's Quite Charming


I feel like a lot of my posts lately have been filled with anxiety, emotional, and cranky.  I would like to rectify this issue by letting anyone reading this that today has been a glorious day.  I am relaxed and completely at ease.  I picked Kevin up at the airport this morning, we had breakfast at Louie's cafe and have been hanging out all day.

I will admit that sometimes things get rough and it can be really hard to see the forest through the trees. However, when it gets that bad I have to stop, breathe and remember why I am here, in Baton Rouge.

I thought a lot about where I wanted to go to school and worried that I was making the right decision personally, professionally,  and financially.  I also was worried about how my decision would impact my MA program and if I would make the people at that program proud.  I have major confidence issues and spend too much time worrying about disappointing people who I highly respect.  

I really feel that LSU was the best decision for me.  John close your eyes; I would hate for you to get a big head. I get to work with some amazing professors who I know care about me and have my best interests at heart.  I also get the opportunity to practice as well as research. (I get to participate in a workshop with a member of Tectonic Theatre Project in November.) I get to do research in a minor field and will have plenty of teaching experience by the time I am done.  I have opportunities here that I wouldn't have other places including getting the chance to see family and loved ones more than once a year at Christmas.

This is a happy post because I am choosing to be happy and not let the fear and the confidence issues bring me down.

Also, I got my actual surprise birthday present today and presents always make me smile.  Kevin is a very good listener and remembered that I have always wanted a charm bracelet that I can add charms to.  So he bought me a sterling silver bracelet and an adorable robot charm. (It matches my robot necklace.)

his chest opens up to reveal a little red heart

He is such a good man. 













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